October 2011
1 post
And now, for a Star Wars marathon! Yay for insomnia :D
August 2011
2 posts
I no longer have the ability to trust.
Readying myself for disappointment!
July 2011
1 post
I’m going to enjoy every last bit of this while it lasts. I don’t see the point in stifling the feelings I have now just because I know it will end badly. I’m just going to ride it out until it ends. I really hope it doesn’t end.
June 2011
4 posts
I am unforgivably in love! No regrets!
Well, you’ve got the Perfect disguise and...
WatchShadow Love
1.Let the Record Go - The Mynabirds
2.Baby - Warpaint
3.Conversation 16 - The National
4.I never - Rilo Kiley
5.Be Healed - Paper Route
6.Shadow Love - Katie Costello
7.Bankrupt on Selling - Modest Mouse
8.Light Outside - Wakey!Wakey!
9.Between Us - Peter Bradley Adams
This is the loveliest love song of my life right...
May 2011
3 posts
Got a sweet playlist of all the great songs of the 90’s playing. I wish I could go back to then as a 20 year old. Life would be so god damn awesome. I would own all the flannels in the world and never wash my hair!
I don’t know if I can stand another hand upon you, all I know is that I should
I am feeling really good right now. It has been a really rocky year so far, lots of ups and LOTS of downs. With all that has happened, I am finally gonna let it all go and move forward! Now is the start to settle into a new and improved life with zero tolerance to what I’ve put up with in the past. It’s time to be happy and hopeful!
April 2011
2 posts
my feel for you boy, is decaying in front of me......
And all I want is to save you, honey Or the strength to walk away
I am happy that I don’t know what is going to happen. The unknown just leaves room for hope that things will get better.
March 2011
1 post
I am getting pretty good at being a loner!
December 2010
3 posts
Focus, Chloe. Focus. And don’t forget to breathe.
I feel like time stops here when I leave. Every time I come back, everything starts back up again and this is my real life. Like waking from a lucid dream. I’m gonna be such a fucked up adult. I can tell you it hasn’t started out lovely.
what a lonely life i lead.
September 2010
2 posts
I don’t understand how to connect with people. Do I try and fix it? Do I run and hide?
I am slowly deteriorating from the inside. I remain distant, because I don’t know anything else. It is gonna either get better or make sure I die miserable. People are just so ridiculous, though. I’m ridiculous. Sometimes I feel like being born is like being trapped into something against your will. I think I was perfectly fine not existing and now I’m here? Bogus. What a sad...
June 2010
1 post
shit adds up.
May 2010
2 posts
I feel like singing until I don’t know anything anymore!
April 2010
0 posts
February 2010
5 posts
Tomorrow marks the beginning of my new life!
Spring time, please come and save me.
I feel like a pot of water that has started to boil over, and there’s no one there to turn the burner down. I’m boiling over with pent up love, sadness, guilt and oddly enough, rage. I am at this transition point in my life and I need to move through it. It’s so hard to cope, sometimes. I find myself to be a little upset with my dad these days. It’s not because of his...
January 2010
1 post
My world as it is
What can I say? I’ll just warn the reader of this blog that nothing I’m going to say will be normal and will probably make said reader feel kind of awkward. I have this knot at the pit of my stomach and tears that I’m finding won’t come anymore. Life has not been bad lately. In fact, if I put my life into perspective, things are pretty okay. Maybe good, even. I’m...
December 2009
2 posts
I know the past will catch you up as you run...
It’s Placebo time. Oh yes, it is. I’ve been waiting for the time when I would become re-obsessed. It happens every so often. They just creep back into my life and I wonder the same thing every time. “Why did I ever stop being un-obsessed with this beautiful band?”. And the fact that their most recent cd sucks doesn’t make me mad, it just disappoints me. I’m like...
In a few short words...
I feel out of place everywhere I go.
November 2009
1 post
October 2009
2 posts
Let the right one in
I tried watching a really amazing movie, but the ending messed up and I didn’t get to watch the whole thing. I’m bummed, because it was a very wonderful movie.
On another note, it’s raining and I am glad.
The Moon is Down
I don’t know why I’m here, and in this moment, I’m scared of the unknown. Sometimes I can distract myself, but I’m becoming increasingly aware that I can’t deal with life the way I wish I could. It’s difficult, and I don’t understand. I feel like i’m missing something, and it’s my fault for not being able to see what it is i’ve been so...
September 2009
5 posts
Sitting in the dark of my room, comforted by the sounds of Dallas Green and the rain. It’s all pretty perfect right now, actually. I love the earthy smell that the rain gives the wind. It’s very nice. Thinking about how life will be if I actually get accepted to Pivot Point. I’m afraid of change, so it’s going to be a challenging time for me, I know. I just hope that I...
backyard ramblings.
Sitting outside, listening to music, gettin’ away in a sense. Thinking about truth, and consequence. Looking at my dad’s big house from the outside. I wonder what I’d think of it if I was just a passerby. It would look peaceful, and I would probably be jealous of it. Appearances confuse me. It’s frustrating and sad, kinda. I really wish I knew how to take care, and move on....
beautiful haiku.
When I lick your face
You get a boner sometimes
As summer descends
At the moment i’m:
1.Looking for a job
2.Not looking for a job
3.This
4.Wrote a song lyric
5.Only wrote a fucking song lyric and now I’m stuck
6.Looking for apartments, and liking what I am seeing.
7.If I only had a fucking job, gad damnit!
I’m sitting here right now, with Evan and Susannah. We’re watching Fear and Loathing, and it’s nice. Tonight has been very unexpectedly wonderful, and I just wanted to document that.
August 2009
3 posts
I am going to do something incredible one day.
Prince Nez- Squirrel Nut Zippers
I’m going to bask in this wonderful moment.
July 2009
3 posts
Every so often -when I’m feeling especially...
Home and Somewhere Else - Mimicking Birds
...
alonelinessthatcreepsupinsideofmeslowlyeveryonceina...
I can’t sleep.
June 2009
1 post
chocolate milk and sliders
among other such things. staying out all night was a bad idea, but playing scattegories junior and trivial pursuit(and being beat by a twelve year old…) are just too much fun to say no to. being graduated so far is amazing, by the way. now, off to work a 3-11 so i can bring in more benjamins… hahaha.
May 2009
2 posts
Waltz(better than fine) - Fiona Apple (no, i...
Today ended pretty awkwardly, and I'll leave it at...
I continue to be disappointed by people I thought that I knew and liked. This ignorance that is being shown to me by them is just completely unbelievable. This is why June 7 will be the happiest day of my life. After school ends, I can have more of a choice of who I wish to be around. FINALLY. 21 more freaking days, thank you Jesus. Anywho, there are 2 things that I would like to say. 1) proms are...
April 2009
4 posts
Thirty Three- Smashing Pumpkins
This has by far...